Monday, July 20, 2009
Sometimes we all just need a good cry!
This post really has nothing much to do with Klayton...but this picture represents my feelings over the last few days...
So ever since Thursday night when I found out my dear friend Amber (and her family) are moving back to Minnesota, I have been 2 seconds from tears and have cried many times... I am sure she felt bad since she had only known for a couple of hours, but really ONE WEEK? That's all I get to adjust to this news? So as she is telling me I burst into tears right in the middle of Gymboree and proceeded to burst into tears several more times that evening.
Then Aaron gets home at 1 a.m. Friday morning and of course I am still up facebooking and then creating this blog. He knows immediately that something is wrong. We crawl into bed and I blubber like a baby about how much I am going to miss her and how shall my life go on. He tries to comfort me the best he can, but I sob and sob.
I do pretty well until Sunday the day Aaron always has to leave to go back to work in Montana (UGH!) Someone at church asks me how I am doing and poor un-suspecting woman sees me burst into tears again and cry about how Aaron is leaving. Of course Sunday afternoon just gets worse when he REALLY does leave...so I cry myself to sleep for a nap. Today is not much better...I realize he has to have a job, but WHY WHY WHY ... It has been more than 8 months and I honestly don't know how much longer I can make it... SO I am waiting and praying and seeking the Lord's guidance. Can I just have an answer Lord...I want/need/crave to be with my husband and weekend visitation rights just aren't cutting it.
I said all this to vent and YES I know it could be worse...he could be overseas in the war and for this I am thankful that he is here, he is safe...I just want him HOME...